with the hits and the misses

Tonight I took myself on a date to the movies. It was my first time going to a movie with myself and I very much enjoyed it. I saw Coco Chanel & Igor Stravinsky for £3.30 (woo Monday cheap nights!) and I bought popcorn for £1.90. I got there early as I usually like to do when I go to the movies, how else are you going to get the best seats!? Well, I had no problem because I was the only one there for about 15 mins. I sat thinking "it's ok you can do this, it's not weird going to the movies on your own". I heard this familiar song they were playing in the background... it was Hanson. Yes folks I am a Hanson fan! Even after the Mmmbop phase (did you know that mmmbop means faster than a millisecond?) It was one of their newer albums that I adore so I sat there becoming more comfortable with my surroundings and I new I made the right decision. People started filing into the theatre but it wasn't full at all which is kind of nice sometimes. I didn't have to awkwardly sit by anyone, bonus!

The movie was amazing. So amazing. Go see it! Err... rent it as the UK is usually behind the times here aka Never Let Me Go comes out in January I think. Womp. Anyway all I want to do is listen to Stravinsky, buy Chanel No.5, run off to Paris, and drink wine.

Truth be told I have been in somewhat of a rut. I think I am coming out of it though and work is just around the corner. I have been reading like mad which is really good for me!

I might have to take a break from the True Blood books as I have to sleep with the light on in the hall because I get spooked easily. Thankfully I finished that book the other day and Never Let Me Go is filling my days.

I may be a bit confused but I think that's part of the point. You discover things with Kathy (the main character) as she remembers her past. Sometimes I finding myself sighing at parts because they are so, so beautiful.

I think My rut might be brought on by missing the past a little bit. Silly things like pumpkin spice lattes from the Coffee Merchant on the way to wind lit., they way you go into Just Us and always know at least one person there, seeing people for the first time in a couple of months, the first music party of the year, f

iguring out what you should play for your audition and wishing you practiced more over the summer, Saturdays with your FH, the smell of the home away from home that I adore, and maybe more than anything those two little people (who aren't so little anymore) who bring me so much joy.

Please don't think I'm not enjoying myself. I just think too much and this might be the first time I am homesick. I think it's the mix of mom and dad being here and then in a blink of an eye they were gone then Brenna leaving the very next day.

Shake it off! Tonight was just the thing I needed. There are bike/walking trails that I discovered and I might pack a lunch and test some of them out. Although it looks like it is going to rain but this is England so I better get used to that.

Now off to bed I go!

Miss you all!

xo